Will you come back?

I travel back,

Down that road,

Will you come back?

No one knows.

Don't Want An Ending

The days turn to hours
And it’s just a moment before they go
I’m scared to say goodbye,
‘Cause what’s after that?
I don’t know.

I'm scared.

Cerita Tentang Hati (Episod 3)

A: Lama tak jumpa kau.

B: Tu lah. kau busy.

A: Haha. takde lah busy mana. Apa cerita baru?

B: takde ape yang menarik.

A: Dia?

B: Siapa?

A: Dia lah.

B: Oh. Hmm. Aku mimpi dia lagi.

A: Ha? lagi? bukan kau dah tak fikir pasal dia ke?

B: Tu la pasal. Aku even dah determined taknak fikir. Tapi..dia masih datang dalam mimpi aku. Aku bangun bangun terus menyumpah. Aihh.

A: Mimpi apa?

B: Mimpi aku nampak dia, tapi aku tak panggil. tak berani. Tu je. tak panjang pun. Sebab aku terus bangun lepas tu. Terkejut mungkin.

A: ....

B: Kau tau, aku macam rasa dia masih tak dapat lupakan ex dia. I mean, aku masih ingat cara dia cerita pasal ex dia kat aku. Like what he likes about her and stuffs.

A: He did? Then kenapa break up?

B: Tak tahan mungkin. Ada lah hal-hal yang tak kena yang buat dia macam tak boleh nak teruskan.

A: Ohh.

B: Tapi bagi aku ex dia, perfect. Cantik, sopan, kelakar, manis orangnya. Pandai pulak tu.

A: Hati dan perasaan, bukan boleh diduga.

B: Betul lah tu.

A: Dia masih contact dengan ex dia?

B: Entah. tak kot. Maybe. Tak sure. Kau rasa?

A: Susah nak cakap. Hati orang weh.

B: Kenapa lah aku ditemukan dengan dia at the first place.. Aihh.

A: Kerja Tuhan. Jangan dipersoalkan. Semua nya bersebab. Sebab yang baik. Mungkin satu ujian bagi kau.

B: Ujian?

A: Ye lah, ujian. Nak duga, samada kau hargai atau tidak apa yang kau ada sekarang.

B: ...

A: Apa yang kau ada sekarang, mungkin apa yang sepuluh ribu orang di luar sana harapkan mereka ada. Bukan senang nak bertemu dan bercinta dengan seseorang yang terima baik buruk kita, sayang diri kita seadanya dalam apa jua keadaan sekalipun. Sehingga ke akhir hayat. Faham maksud aku?

B: ... Faham.

A: Jangan terlalu dibuai perasaan. For all you know, maybe it's not even love. It's just, infatuation.

B: Infatuation?

A: Perasaan tertarik kepada seseorang untuk tempoh sementara.

B: 4 tahun kau panggil sementara?

A: Bukan sepanjang 4 tahun tu you felt that way about him kan? It was an on and off thing kan?

B: Well..yeah..but..

A: So, it's infatuation lah. Ada beza di situ.

B: Infatuation..

A: Jangan musnahkan apa yang kau ada sekarang. Knowing you, you won't be able to suffer the consequences of that risk. Aku pernah tengok kau jatuh macam mana dulu. Kau lemah dalam soal percintaan. Lemah bila kau terlalu sayangkan seseorang. You can't afford to lose him. You'll die inside..

B: ...

I should go adopt a kid

A kid , not a baby. I'm not good with babies. Yet.

Having a kid would be nice i guess.

You get to go shop at those shops where they sell this cute little dresses which makes you go, "awww...". Or those cute jeans and sweater with a baseball cap which makes you go "heesh comel betul lah !"

You get to groom them the way you want them to be groomed. Hairstyle, what to wear for raya, what to wear to go to the park blalblablabla.

You now have a valid excuse to go to McDonald's every single day for lunch and dinner. C'mon, budak budak memang suka makan Mcd. Takkan nak marah kan. Kesian dierang. They're just kids, you know. *kenyit kenyit mata*

Holding those tiny hands while walking makes you feel somehow, needed for protection, needed for love. Which makes you feel good about yourself. Everyone likes to feel needed, kan?

And, because a kid's smile, washes away all the exhaustion, frustration or even sadness that you had gone through for the day. As simple as that. Just one smile, and it's heaven.

:)

Oh The Things Love Do To You ;)

No matter how macho you try to act,

No matter the cigarette in your left hand,

The drinks in your left hand,

The Ray Ban covering your eyes,

The top-to-toe TopMan apparel,

The always checking out hotties in sexy gears whenever you're out with them buddies,

BUT..

WHEN THAT ONE GIRL STEALS YOUR HEART...

Your macho smile suddenly turns into this one rare sheepish smile,

Like a highschool boy out on a first date with a highschool girl,

Your face goes all blushy-wushy when you bumped into some friends while you're out on a date with that special girl,

You even smile virtually 24/7, on your Facebook status,

You constantly check your BB while out with friends, not realizing your friends are watching you,

And all those walls of ego comes down down down,

Revealing,

Showing to the whole world,

" I'M IN LOVE ! ". =)

Congratulations, Fikri Mohamad. :)

Kau Ingat Best Jadi Peguam Ni?

Masalah orang lain, jadi masalah kau.

Tak settle masalah orang tu, memang kau lah kan yang kena. Mahkamah marah, bos marah, hah tak lupe jugak client kau.

Semua benda pun ada date line. Kalau semua orang bekerja ikut date line, aman lah kehidupan bekerja kau. Tapiiiii, memang tak arr kan. Semua orang akan lambat, dan kau yang kena terkejar kejar lari sana sini macam kena kejar kuntilanak nak menyiapkan kerja so that MASALAH ORANG TU BOLEH SETTLE ON TIME. Aihh.

Kau tengah concentrate tengok wayang sambil kunyah pop corn. *ngap ngap ngap* Cerita best pulak tu kan. Rosnah Mat Aris berlakon. Tiba tiba, jeng jeng jenggg ! Terlintas dalam fikiran kau bak layar perak imej imej seperti fail bertimbun atas meja, muka client yang memang dah set in his mind nak bagi kau ceramah esok pagi, bos kau pulak tiba tiba cancel trip pegi Hong Kong so esok memang dia ada kat ofis untuk bagi tekanan extra terhadap kau, dan lain lain imej yang, boleh membuatkan your blood go up up and can also make you die die die.

Kau baru balik makan dengan kawan kawan dan kau dah mengantuk sebab penat bekerja seharian tapi jangan harap lah kau boleh tido sebab ada nota prosiding dalam mahkamah yang kau kena e-melkan pada bos kau dalam tempoh.. hmm, lets see, 3 jam dari sekarang? -_-

p/s: Berangan nak tengok cerita the O.C. Aihh. Entah bila.

Truth hurts

You were imagining, visualizing. Images of you and him. Being happy together. Laugh, smile, tease each other. Do things together. Imagine, Summer & Cohen of the O.C.

And then it hit you.

He's in love with someone else.

Someone in his past.

Whom he had loved, still love and will always love.

And there you go.

Heart crushed. All over again.

Painful stabs starts like it'll never stop.

And you suffocate.

And cry silently in your heart.

Truth hurts.

Real bad.